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I read 11 books in January and they were mostly graphic novels and things that came off library hold in this time due to me trying and failing to read The Brothers Karamazov. I have extended my library hold on the Garnett translation Three Times. I’m still less than 50% through. I keep cycling between the translation and the original because the Russian language has evolved less since the 1800s than English has so sometimes Garnett’s Victorian English is harder to read than the original, but then the original has a lot of words I don’t know either (mostly to do with the church stuff). It’s harddddd but I want to stick with it because I’ve already given up on it on two previous attempts and I can’t let my Russian-American complex get to me!

Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami
Hm. I don’t think Murakami is for me. I read Hardboiled Wonderland and the End of the World when I was in high school and the only thing I remember about that one is his obsession with the girl’s earlobes, so I thought I’d try something else of his and. I just don’t think the lesbian-confession scene was necessary, first of all. It was easy to read though, and compelling even though the main character was annoying.

Solanin and Solanin Epilogue by Inio Asano
I don’t remember what the impetus was for me to read all of Solanin now but I ended up staying up late to finish it in one sitting because Oh My God, Inio Asano is a genius and no WONDER late-2000s webcomics were like this if they were all reading this then. I can see its influence on Scott Pilgrim and Octopus Pie. This might’ve changed my life if I’d read it in high school, it already kinda changed my life now. I want to make something that makes people feel like this. I finished reading it past 1 in the morning and I just wanted to run laps screaming, somehow? Crazy work, Asano-sensei! If I ever meet him I will cry. I knew it was going to be good because of how people talk about it (and because I’ve read other Asano comics), but I didn’t know it was going to be THAT good, even twenty years after it first came out!! Aaaa!!!

Strange Pictures by Uketsu

Gimmicky, but some of the twists did get me, even though most of the mysteries and solutions required me to suspend a lot of disbelief that more than one person in this world would ever think of that. And a quick read! I put a hold on the sequel.

Refuse to Be Done: How to Write and Rewrite a Novel in Three Drafts by Matt Bell

Got it from the library and liked it enough to consider buying it. Helped me revise my draft. The craft advice was really practical, and the draft ideas were interesting and new to me.

On Her Terms by Amy Spalding

Finally, a genuinely unconventional F/F romance! The lead is in her mid-thirties, bisexual, and just ended her first and only long-term relationship with a man. There’s a stupid fake dating scheme that doesn’t need to happen, a destination wedding to a town an hour away, and a happy ending without marriage and kids, thank god. The lead’s brother and friends were kind of annoying, though. I think I liked the first book in the series better? I skipped the middle book by accident and then refused to check it out even though it’s ready to borrow on Libby because I am still fighting for my life against The Karamazovs.

The Pervert by Remy Boydell, Michelle Perez
I liked it... I liked the art. I remember a lot of people were talking about this book when it was new. I think it still hits now. It would be cool to see Boydell and Perez in conversation with Torrey Peters. I do want to see more of Boydell’s work, the watercolors here are so delicate and evocative... I kinda want to do a watercolor comic...

The Demon of Beausoleil by Mari Costa

Full review here~!

Thirst Trap by Grainne O’Hare

I liked it! Funny, reminded me of Derry Girls because it’s a group of female friends in Northern Ireland. It was funny how one was gay one was bi and one was straight, and they all had relationship problems going on. I enjoyed reading it.

Catherine House by Elisabeth Thomas

Dark Academia but with a literary-sounding narrative voice that reminded me of Prep or Elif Batuman’s autofiction. Thoughtful worldbuilding, good sentences. Kind of wish Catherine House was real and I could’ve gone to school there. Pretty good, honestly, but probably would’ve benefited from more literary marketing instead of the dark academia-style cover it’s got going on right now. I was not expecting it to be as good as it was based on that cover, sorry.

I Want To Hold Aono-kun So Badly I Could Die, Volume 13 by Umi Shiina

Got the notification this book was out and dropped everything to read it. One More Volume in English remains... MAN. I have written about Aono-kun previously here. It’s still great! Goddamn!! I love comics!!!

Liquid: A Love Story by Mariam Rahmani

Grabbed this from the new releases table at the library right before The Big Snowstorm in case we lost power and I was bored, lol. Read most of it while snowed in. Sets up a lot of interesting things and then goes with the boring ending... Kind of funny at times, mostly just made me feel bad for the narrator. As always, I liked the diaspora stuff because #relatable. The dude was kind of boring. I think I liked it more than I was bored by it. The jokes helped.

 

My girlfriend and I have started playing Z. A. T. O//I Love The World and Everything In It and it’s good so far. Namedropped my beloved A Hundred Years Ago Ahead <3. On Ferry’s tumblr she mentioned she was originally inspired by Sorokin’s short story падеж, so I read it and was relieved the final conception of the story changed to not be inspired by that, and then I read another Sorokin short story to confirm that Sorokin is Not My Thing. Very gross, grim, visceral. My mother was right when she said he was мрачный.

Mostly a good reading month, save for my Karamazov struggles. I’ll get to the end of that thing eventually!

Personal Project Update: I am about halfway through my next First Chapter Study, approaching it a little differently than the first two. Hopefully I’ll be done and ready to report on it next week!

Oh also also I wrote a sports anime listicle for The Beat because a managing editor pitched it in the Slack and I was like “this is my pitch, it was made for me.” Read it here.

I finally watched Heated Rivalry (EXTREMELY impressed by Connor Storrie’s accent in Russian, he sounds better than some Russian-American kids I’ve known growing up here!) and I have read some interesting articles that summarize the constant treadmill of fujo discourse Heated Rivalry accidentally pulled forward into the mainstream. This one’s by noted BL Scholar Thomas Baudinette, this one is about queer readings of shonen manga. Interesting stuff!

Thanks for reading!


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In October I read. 24 books. But at least half of them were graphic novels due to a) Comic Con and b) the annual PW Critic’s Poll landing in my inbox and reminding me I haven’t read anything all year and need to catch up so I can make a good list lol. Anyway, on to the list!

Grand Slam Romance Book 3: Farewell to Babes: A Graphic Novel Volume 3 by Emma Oosterhous and Ollie Hicks

What a fun conclusion to a fun series! It’s frankly criminal this trilogy isn’t the most popular graphic novel series out there, it’s so funny and so gay and fun. I want to make something this fun! Longer review of volume 2 up on WWAC if you wanna see.

Сто лет тому вперёд (A Hundred Years Ago Ahead) by Kir Bulychev

I made my girlfriend watch two episodes of the TV miniseries adaptation A Guest From The Future (ON YOUTUBE WITH ENGLISH SUBTITLES. We do not speak of the new remake), which made me want to reread the book to remember what they’d changed for the series. It’s a really good children’s book, actually! I feel like Bulychev’s optimistic view of the future really influenced my own science fiction-themed creative work, because this series was my FAVORITE in elementary school. Rereading as an adult, I was really impressed with how realistic and specific each kid character was. There was a whole class of kids and they all felt different but believable. They’re all generally well-meaning but still capable of being petty and jealous and annoying, because they’re literally twelve. They feel believably twelve years old. Even Alisa the supergirl from the future feels like a twelve year old, more or less. And it’s funny!!!

Night in the American Village: Women in the Shadow of the U.S. Military Bases in Okinawa by Akemi Johnson

I did not know how much I didn’t know about Okinawa and its relationship to Japan and the U.S. Military. The book is structured as a series of case studies-interviews with different women living in Okinawa, from Okinawan WWII survivors to American military wives to the half-American daughters of local women and military men. Ultimately, Johnson concludes the bases need to go, but it’s surprising how many locals like having them there because of how much the local economy is tied up in those bases. Really informative and engaging book.

Moderation by Elaine Castillo

This was really fun. There were a lot of sentences that struck me as perfect ways to phrase things while I was reading, but then when I tried going back to find examples I couldn’t seem to pinpoint them. Still, Castillo’s writing felt very elegant and controlled, like her main character. The romance worked really well too, the love interest wasn’t too perfect and he and Girlie seemd to fit together well. Also Girlie’s family was really fun. I read it on the train up to NYCC lol.

Breadcrumbs: Coming of Age in Post-Soviet Poland by Kasia Babis

Read this on the train coming down from the First Second/23rd Street party at NYCC lol. Babis’s memoir examines the realities of being a socially conscious young woman in the deeply Catholic, conservative post-Soviet world of early 2000s Poland, looking at her life but also that of her friends and their families. I remember reading some of her short comics on the Nib and enjoying them, but I liked the memoir more. It felt very cohesive and intentional.

How Could You by Ren Strapp

Also read this on the train down from NYCC due to purchasing it directly from the author there lol. Ah, collegiate mess. If you love disaster lesbians causing problems, this is the book for you!

The Original Daughter by Jemimah Wei

I remember reading that this got like a 500k advance and a blurb from Kaveh Akhbar and I dunno I thought it was, like, fine. I thought the random lesbian couple Genevieve meets in NZ was weirdly glossed over if she’s coming from Singapore where homosexuality is much less accepted but I guess she’s writing for a Western audience? It might’ve been more interesting with more POV changes, or from Arin’s POV instead of Genevieve. Surprised by the Akhbar blurb considering the prose in this was... pretty bland, mostly. I guess it’s fine for a debut?

The New Girl by Cassandra Calin

I got this at the Scholastic party at NYCC (signed by the author!) and it’s cute! Very standard Middle Grade Autofiction Graphic Novel, elevated by frankly extremely appealing art and slightly unusual personal backstory (Romanian girl moves to Montreal, which stands out amongst all the middle-American new-kid-at-school books in this genre.) I’ve seen some of Calin’s webcomic strips around before, and I was surprised how well she adapted her style to this full color middle grade look. Cuter than pretty much any competitor I can think of right now. Definitely recommend for anyone with a kid in their life.

Wotakoi: Love is Hard for Otaku, Vol. 4 by Fujita

Reread, I won the Fujita signing lottery at Kodansha House and then didn’t realize we needed to bring a book to the signing and panic-bought this while waiting for my turn to get a book signed. Then read the whole thing while waiting lol. She drew Hanako in it for me. It’s perfect. I can die happy now.

The Internal Sea: Mare Internum by Der-Shing Helmer

Full review on The Beat. I liked it!

Kindred by Octavia E. Butler

Heard a lot about this and finally read it! I was not expecting the time travel to be back-and-forth and was not expecting Dana to be able to bring stuff with her when time traveling. I really liked her relationship with her husband, complicated but still loving and supportive. Dana was a fun lead to follow. The escalation of the time jumps was stressful, and the slavery parts were genuinely horrifying. More fun to read than I thought it’d be, though. 

And The Strange & Funky Happenings One Day by Miyazaki Natsujikei

I bought this at MOCCA in March but I am so so bad at finishing short story collections because each short story makes me feel like I’m done reading so this took me forever to finish. It’s fun! Weird, random, charming. I did like it. It was just hard for me to finish it lol.

The God of the Woods by Liz Moore

Sad! Decent mystery, very strong exploration of the dynamics of both a specific place and specific types of people in that place. I think I did like it overall.

A Drifting Life by Yoshihiro Tatsumi

Discussed in more detail in this post, this ruled.

Three Men in a Boat by Jerome K. Jerome

I had high expectations for this but it didn’t work for me. Too many random unrelated digressions, too little point. Not that funny. I think I was expecting something closer to Sayers’s Peter Wimsey stories. Might watch the Soviet movie eventually, it’s my cousin’s favorite.

The Love Affairs of Nathaniel P. by Adelle Waldman

Inspired to read by liking Help Wanted and a Substack post about what this Type of Guy could look like in 2025. Tne book seemed very observant. I disagree with the Substack post that this guy is based on Keith Gessen, though: no prominent sibling in a similar field (or unprominent siblings, Nate’s an only child), and Nate’s backstory seems more similar to Waldman’s own than Gessen’s. Also, Nate did not start a magazine at any point in the book lol. Lots of people in media are children of Eastern European immigrants, random Substack guy!

Palestine by Joe Sacco

I think this might actually be my first Sacco book, which is kind of wild because I feel like I’ve read his work before? He did a visiting artist talk at CCS that I remember finding very insightful. His style is interesting, somehow both spontaneously stream of consciousness and extremely laborious. I remember he did talk about how long each page takes him to draw. I do want to read his new book about Gaza and see if he managed to follow up with anyone he interviewed in this one. Definitely informative.

The Empusium by Olga Tokarczuk

Ok the misogyny was infuriating but I respected that Tokarczuk was doing that on purpose and Going Somewhere With It and boy was she ever. Maybe I should read the Magic Mountain for the full experience. I loved the random images and photos just kind of thrown in there for decoration. I want to do that with a novel someday.

The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson

Shorter than I thought it’d be, funnier than I thought it’d be, sadder than I thought it’d be.

They Were 11! by Moto Hagio

First half was great, second half was all interplanetary politics that were much less my thing, but the book design and Hagio’s art were wonderful. Great reissue.

Saint Catherine by Anna Meyer

Pretty Good! A good first title for 23rd street. I liked all the characters and I feel like the themes hung together well.

Smoke gets in your eyes by Anaïs Flogny

My friend Lydia’s first acquisition as an editor at Abrams! So stylish, so pretty, so elegant. Classic Mafia Yaoi but done so, so well, like the most perfect Old-Fashioned from an upscale bar.

Black Arms to Hold You Up: A History of Black Life, Taken by Force by Ben Passmore

Really funny and creative, and very informative. I learned a lot about stuff I’d previously heard of in passing or not at all, and the bibliography at the end was very helpful too.

Land vol 1 by Kazumi Yamashita

THIS FUCKING RULED. Made me go “ooooo” out loud. Folk horror! Twins separated at birth! Gods which are real?! Fantasy or science fiction?! Who knows! I need volume 2 like right now or else!
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After the Denpa/Kuma licensing panel at Anime NYC 2025, I wave goodbye to the acquaintance I’d first met at the manga freelancer mixer the day before and walk back to Penn Station alone.
Walking back to Penn Station alone is not in itself a novel experience for me: When I come up to NYC, it’s often to meet up with people who live in the city already. But still, something felt odd about this particular walk. As if I’d left a parenthesis open on my convention experience, and the weekend was still unfinished.
I thought back to my first convention at the Javits: New York Comic Con, 2012. My mother dropped me off by car because, at fourteen, I was still too scared to take the train up by myself. It was my second convention ever, the first being an anime convention at a local community college the previous year. I stepped out of the car next to the badge pick-up line to hear someone yelling “MASHA” at maximum volume— a friend I’d made at summer camp a few months prior, who I hadn’t realized was going to be at the show. (And was cosplaying God Tier Tavros. We’d bonded over Homestuck.) I spent most of my NYCC, and the three that followed, hanging out with my friends from summer camp and a bunch of other Homestuck cosplayers. I looked around the Artist Alley, I went to some silly fun panels like in-character Homestuck discussion panels or “Dos and Don’ts of Lolita Fashion”, and I spent my entire show surrounded by friends I’d made over our similar interests in...mostly Homestuck, but also 2012 Nerd Culture in general. I got to experience the warmth of belonging I mostly didn’t feel in my day-to-day life.
Since my school days, I’ve stopped going to conventions (or shows, as people “in the industry” call them) for pure fun, and started going to them for work, with a Press badge as part of the comics journalism websites I write for now. Or for the potential of future work: when Anime NYC started, I was two days out of my editorial internship with a manga publisher and was cheerfully telling everyone who asked how much I’d love to keep working in the manga industry. Which is 100% true: I loved every moment of my internship and spent a lot of it thinking “I can’t believe I’m getting paid to do this." I want to keep doing it so badly it aches.
It really is so much fun, to be on the inside of a convention instead of just a fan. Getting to skip the long line for badge pick-up, getting to sit in the Press Lounge (slightly more exciting than the staff break room at my day job), going to panels and not just knowing the people on the panel but knowing what they’re going to announce that day before they make their announcements (and not saying anything about it because I am soooo good at keeping secrets I promise.) I love seeing bits and pieces of the big machine that keeps fandom going, and knowing how everything falls into place to entertain hundreds and thousands of people for one overpriced weekend.
But going to the show For Work also made the show exhausting in a way shows weren’t when I was a student: the feeling of being constantly on the clock, frantically scribbling notes at panels I’d need to write up later, having my business cards at the ready for when I met someone I’d like to stay in touch with after the show. I spent almost all of my Friday in panels and running around from place to place, not getting any opportunity to check out the Artist Alley until the next day. I managed to miss seeing several of my online friends at the event entirely, and the friends I did see I could only overlap with for a few hours at most before we had to go to different panels or events, splitting up with an awkward, “hopefully see you later?” So I never really got to say goodbye properly to anybody because it was hard to be sure if we’d run into each other again later. 
And so, when I walked off to Penn Station alone, it was without having anyone to say goodbye to first. I wasn’t sure where my friends were: I think some had left already, and some were at the Seinen Manga panel at the Japan Society on the other side of Manhattan. The cell reception at the Javits is notoriously terrible, so there was no point in messaging people to ask if they were around. I stepped out of that giant glass fidget-spinner-shaped structure into the darkening night sky feeling that quintessential New York City anonymity. Just another nerd with an anime con badge, heading back to real life. 
I ended up getting dinner at Penn Station because every place I passed on the way was completely packed, and the timing of the trains worked out so I was scarfing down my fettucine alfredo on the train as it pulled out of the station. I kind of wished I’d been able to eat dinner with someone. And not inside Penn Station. That and the complete internet dead zone that happens between going down to the train platform and the train bursting out onto the surface again really accentuated the isolation.
Would I rather be going to shows like Anime NYC with my friends from school, to hang out in cosplay? Or do I like being an industry person, alone in the crowd of thousands, but with knowledge and access the masses lack? Or would I rather be even more than that: an invited guest, holding court at panels and signings for my scores of adoring fans? ...Well, it might be fun to try that last one someday.
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I don’t know how I read this many books in a month, especially the longer ones. Some of them are graphic novels, I was off work for a week and then when I did work it was insanely slow and thus conducive to reading time, and I did skim a lot. But a lot of these were really good! 

Presented in the order I read them because:

Margo's Got Money Troubles by Rufi Thorpe REALLY started the year off on a good book. I loved Margo’s narrative voice and all the characters surrounding her, and I really wanted to see things work out. It was funny and sweet and yeah sad at times but I enjoyed it a lot. It’s a book about a college student who suddenly finds herself a single mom and so starts an OnlyFans and how both of those things affect her life and the people around her. It just… it just works so well.

The Whole of Humanity Has Gone Yuri Except for Me by Hiroki Haruse

Gift from my girlfriend <3 the premise is incredible, the attempts at a plot were not as incredible, but it was a cute quick read and overall fun enough.

The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton

Those 1870s rich people sure could pine. I mostly found myself feeling bad for the women in the story, and also for everyone else in how deeply restricted they were by such arbitrary social rules. Which I think was the point? Trying to read more Classics these days anyway.

Averee by Dave Johnson, Stephanie Phillips

Gift from a friend. Really disappointing because the premise sounded right up my alley and both author and artist seemed to be very experienced professionally, but the overall story was thin and shallow and the art was stiff and uninteresting. It felt like if it was twice or three times as long and also used the basic setup differently to explore the actual social impacts of its conceit it’d be more fun.

Camp Damascus by Chuck Tingle

It was fine. I think this would’ve hit harder if I was reading it as an exvangelical, but I have only ever experienced American Christianity from the outside, so. Probably my last Tingle book, I don’t think I really vibe with the writing style.

The Fury by Alex Michaelides

We get it you really liked The Murder of Roger Ackroyd. (Also maybe Lolita?) I feel like the author was desperately trying to pull off a specific kind of likeable-unlikeable narrator here that ultimately fell flat with me. He was just too obviously scheming. Sorry for the spoiler I guess.

I Think Our Son Is Gay, Vol. 04 by Okura

It was ready to borrow on Libby and I couldn’t remember which volume I’d read last so I impulse-grabbed it. Cute, short, sweet. I totally forgot everything about the supporting cast since the last time I checked in on the possibly-gay son. It’s cute though!

Edison by Pallavi Sharma Dixit

THIS RULED. EXTENDED REVIEW HERE. I LOVE IT, NO NOTES.

Blue Sisters by Coco Mellors

I was not expecting this book to be about the horrors of drug addiction and pain and obssessive personalities, but as an exploration of those things it was fine.
Taiwan Travelogue by 楊双子, Yáng Shuāng-zǐ

It's always nice to read sapphic historical fiction by a lesbian. The main character is annoying but in a kind of fun way, and the food descriptions made me put the book down and run out to the local Asian food market for wintermelon tea and braised pork over rice. I think people who think Babel is a nuanced and complex look at colonization and imperialism should read Taiwan Travelogue.
The Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon

I was interested in checking this book out for a while because when I worked at the bookstore I could see its VAST LENGTH on the shelf and was frightened and intrigued by it. Then it was ready to borrow on libby and I was like great I don’t have to lug a brick around. Then I realized I had to read the brick. It felt like it took forever and at least two of the viewpoint characters felt superfluous as consistent throughlines, but I liked the lesbian subplot and the language and worldbuilding was interesting, which was mostly what I was reading it for. I liked how the fictional lands were both distinctly fantastical and clearly inspired by real-world equivalents.

Book Lovers by Emily Henry

I finished Priory and then immediately needed a palate cleanser so I reread my fave. Still good! Still fave. Despite the het.

Heart and Seoul by Jen Frederick

Absolutely deranged that this book says ON THE FRONT COVER that it's a romance and yet the main couple ends the book not together for reasons of family drama scandal situation. I don't think you're allowed to do that! Romances are supposed to be happy endings! Otherwise it was both more and less intrigue kdrama plot twisty than I expected. I liked the one roommate that got character development but I wish the other roomies did too.

Intermezzo by Sally Rooney

I disagree with her philosophically on the matter of quotation marks for dialogue. Otherwise I really did like the relationship between Ivan and Margaret a lot but Peter’s head was kind of annoying to be in. Too Joyce 4 Me. I like how his love triangle works out in the end that was a fun choice.

The September House by Carissa Orlando

This was fun and unsettling. What if you moved into a very haunted house but you were totally fine with it because you had a system and you were coping and then your daughter comes to visit and is like mom what the fuck? The way in which the narrator was unreliable here was really interesting. To me.

I Am Not Jessica Chen by Ann Liang

I am a known Ann Liang stan so when I say this is her best book so far I'm being very serious. Also I am never reading it again because it made me sob and brought me back to the worst parts of being the dumbest kid in the smart kid classes at my high school. It hit very hard. I enjoy reading her funny stuff more. But this is a very good book.

Cranford by Elizabeth Gaskell

I like this matriarchial kind of 1840s English village situation. I feel like I learned a lot about a very small and specific world. It didn't spark with me the same way it did with whoever I was reading on dreamwidth that mentioned it but it was nice.

The Shakespeare Requirement by Julie Schumacher

Not as good as Dear Committee Members sorry.
Into Thin Air: A Personal Account Of The Everest Disaster

HARROWING. I have developed new phobias of things I didn't know I needed to fear. Did not know oxygen deprivation did that to people! Also the back and forth with Boukreev as described in the post script was understandable but very sad.

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Stop me if you've heard this one before.

So a guy--and it's always a guy, an everyman guy, a kind of pathetic but technically competent youngish average normal guy-- is trying really hard to succeed as a solo narrative storyteller, but his efforts are just not working out for him. But suddenly, the draft or outline or first chapter of a REALLY GREAT STORY falls into his lap. So... He takes that draft, finishes it, and passes it off as his own. And it's the greatest success the world has ever known! Except eventually his lie catches up to him and he faces the consequences of his actions.  Woe is him. The end.

I've always found these premises kind of confusing, because I don't think the concept is always better than the execution. Maybe because I read so much fanfiction which is all riffing on the same few plots. Some coffeeshop meet cute AUs stand head and shoulders above other coffeeshop meet cutes (there's a reason no one ever shuts up about Jaywalkers, still, to this day.) And it's not because Le Petit Whatever is a more compelling cafe than a Starbucks, it's because AO3 user batman's writing style is polished and elegant and memorable in a way most prose, fanfic or otherwise, just isn't.

In Jean Hanff Korelitz's The Plot, the Plot our protagonist steals from a guy in a writing workshop is repeatedly described by everyone as the most brilliant and exciting and extreme plot twist the world has ever seen, which naturally ensured that whenever it was finally revealed it would be a disappointment. I guessed the book-within-a-book twist about fifty pages ahead of the reveal myself, which is saying something considering I'm usually more of a mystery enjoyer than a solver. What made The Plot really work for me overall, though, is that the final late game twist of the frame story around the fictional plagiarism actually did go in a direction I didn't fully expect, which was pretty dark and horrifying! And funny. A little awkwardly funny, but still funny. I also did feel like the main character's creative struggles and mindset were understandable and believable. I enjoyed it, overall.

This premise didn't work so well in the short-lived Shonen Jump manga Time Paradox Ghostwriter by Kenji Ichima and Tsunehiro Date. In TPG, Teppei is a young mangaka assistant dreaming of serialization, but editors are constantly slamming his stories down as derivative and creatively empty. Suddenly his microwave starts spitting out Shonen Jump magazines from ten years in the future. Believing this to be a weird dream, he copies the first chapter of a new story from the future Jump to the best of his ability and submits it. And it becomes a huge success! Except the girl who drew that future first chapter, Itsuki, sees Teppei's debut, and tracks him down... To tell him how thrilled she is that she's not the only one who could come up with that basic premise???

The central theme of TPG, counter to the repeated maxims of "everyone has a story to tell" deconstructed in The Plot and Andrew Lipstein's Last Resort, is that some people really are creatively empty and incapable of creating truly original stories. Which I fundamentally disagree with. If your work seems derivative you need to a) diversify your creative input b) figure out a message besides Have Fun and c) yeah, look inside yourself and your life experiences a little. Your manga looks too much like other manga? Go read some Asterix, or X-men, or Berlin by Jason Lutes. See a play. Take a knitting class. Read prose. It's not an unsolvable problem, and the reason it seems like it to these characters is because they're young and lacking in life experience and perspective. Which I guess I am too, but at least I'm aware of it. Just pair up with a writer like the creators of this comic did. 

I think this frustrates me so much because I've never had a problem coming up with ideas for comics, I've just been struggling to execute them effectively for the past decade. I'm desperate to improve my drawing skills to a point where I can get published as a writer and artist, but it feels like nothing I do will get me there. But ideas are easy! It's the execution that's hard! 

The Plot and Last Resort had one big thing in common TPG didn't: the protagonists didn't just plagiarize someone else's fictional story, they plagiarized real events that happened to someone else, and that had consequences for their lives. But the manga in TPG appears to be a standard shonen fighter fantasy story, not narratively groundbreaking in any way obvious to the readers of the manga outside the manga. Both Itsuki and Teppei only want to make popular manga everyone can enjoy, not tell a specific story or communicate something to the world, which makes me wonder what exactly makes their comic so super amazing anyway. Caleb in Last Resort wanted to be recognized for his skill as a novelist more than anything else. Jake in The Plot had been recognized as a novelist once already with a well-regarded if not bestselling first book and was desperate for a career reset. I feel like that kind of egoism is a little more honest and believable than the altruistic goal of entertaining everyone. Maybe because I'm an egoist myself. I wanna be the very best like no one ever was, etc.

Bringing it back around to the title of this post and fanfiction, there's a lot of people who write plot-first kinda fics of worldbuilding-heavy canons, who want to "fix" BNHA by making Deku a supersmart quirkless analyst instead of shipping stuff. And a lot of those kinds of fics have potentially interesting ideas! But a lot of them also have an execution that makes me not want to look at them twice, from too many SPAG errors to giving Present Mic a speaking style like a Homestuck typing quirk (a specific fic that haunts me). A really great plot can't hit without good execution. In Last Resort, Caleb's friend Avi sends him the short story version of the story that Caleb ends up stealing for his novel, and Caleb is unimpressed with Avi's actual writing. Caleb steals it almost unintentionally, just driving up the West Coast and thinking about how he could improve the story and make it stronger. The Plot asserts that the specific plot Jake steals would be impossible to execute so badly it wouldn't become a smash hit, but by a fortunate coincidence both Jake and the guy he stole it from were already pretty good writers.

A boring plot can be a hit if the execution is interesting somehow (people like Sally Rooney, after all). A plot that's been done a zillion times can be a hit if there's something, anything about it that's slightly new. These three versions of the same story are all still different from each other, right?

So does having a great premise/concept/plot really matter that much?

 


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So I binged all of Blue Lock in about three days, after turning my nose up at the very premise when it first dropped in 2018. And like... I like it. But not the way I like Haikyuu!!, which is also a sports manga that occupies a lot of my brainspace. Blue Lock doesn't make me want to draw fanart or write fanfiction. I don't even have a favorite character in it. I guess I like Bachira and Chigiri if I really had to pick, but I don't think about any of them often enough to do that. But it gets me fired up in a way Haikyuu!! rarely did, because its pace was a lot more...slow and steady?
Blue Lock is operating at 200% intensity, all the time. Every soccer game is accompanied by characters burning with symbolic fire, usually fire with skulls in it. Every single soccer player wants to be the bestest in the world at all costs, unlike Haikyuu!! where for most of the characters high school volleyball really was just a school club they didn't continue with after high school. They're all doing crazy soccer things at all times, and even though I know basically nothing about soccer and have no interest in it, seeing them doing their crazy soccer things illustrated with sharp, graphic visual metaphors like disintegrating puzzle pieces, fire, lions and tigers and snakes (oh my!) makes me feel excited.
But not about soccer. No, it makes me excited because my first thought is, "Oh, I can draw people fencing like this. I can make fencing look cool if I draw it like this. I want to draw my fencing comic again."


I've drawn at least 4 different comics about high school girls fencing, the quality slowly improving with each attempt. I've finally landed on a group of characters I think could really work for a longform story, but my art still has a ways to go before it's publication ready. So I'm practicing!


There's a lot of manga about baseball (obviously), and more than a few series about volleyball and soccer (Farewell, My Dear Cramer is honestly slept on even though it got cancelled before its time. The anime was a very sad excuse for an adaptation. Feral girl rights!), but as far as comics about fencing that are available in English in any capacity go, we've got the webtoon Infinity (genuinely slaps hard, art style's an acquired taste but the writing is smart, characters fun and they do make an effort to make fencing look cool while taking advantage of the vertical scroll format.) And the Boom! series Fence!, which I liked when it first dropped and then slowly realized it was in fact falling apart at the seams. And each new issue just makes the holes bigger. One of its biggest failings is, quite honestly, the art: the fact that it makes fencing look boring.

Fencing is not actually as visually interesting a sport as swashbuckling swordfights in movies make it seem: everyone wears white, faces are totally obscured by black wire mesh masks, and you can't even move from side to side in it, just back and forth! You have to use visual metaphors and, if working in color, emotionally expressive color to make fencing look interesting in a comic. But Fence! doesn't even differentiate the fencing uniforms from different schools realistically: it's impossible to keep track of who's from where when they're standing around. Infinity manages that and more. Like, okay, just look at this.



panel from fence rivals depicting characters standing and other characters yelling fencing terminology over them.

AAAAAAAAAAA.
Anyway, the other thing I realized is that the last few comics I've felt insane about, Blue Lock and Pyramid Game, have both been... unhinged. Lots of people behaving in ways normal people would never. Hand in unlovable hand toxic female friendships and singleminded homoerotic soccer obsession. But when I write original stories/make original comics, I tend towards things that people call "cute" and "sweet" and "nice." I don't think my work is cutesy or anything, and I'd like to believe I make things with at least some bite to them. At least a little darkness. But why am I so scared of writing the over-the-top intensity and character drama I love reading about so much? Why am I so afraid of writing failgirls, and totally unhinged girls? How do I channel the energy Blue Lock awakens in me, or the spite Fence! makes me feel?
Anyway, Blue Lock should've been a yuri manga.

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To explain this, first I need to tell you about A Man Who Defies the World of BL.

A Man Who Defies the World of BL (Zettai BL ni naru sekai VS Zettai BL ni Naritakunai Otoko, I'm shortening it to Zettai BL) is a manga by Konkichi and the concept is that the main character is a self-aware background extra in a BL manga-- in every BL manga, somehow, as he is surrounded by couples on all sides and even his little brother managed to raise a flag with a classmate. Worst of all, plain-faced protagonists are becoming more popular these days, so this poor heterosexual trapped in a world where women have blurry and undefined faces has to be very careful to avoid ending up in a BL plot of his own. It's very funny and got a hilarious live action adaptation as well.



In the world this unnamed protagonist inhabits, BL plots and tropes are just constantly beseiging him. Karaoke, drinking parties, Valentine's Day with no girls present, fudanshi classmates. Not only that, but all of his friends are (not-so) secretly dating, and they take turns fighting in a way that makes protag wonder "are your books coming out one after each other?" Every chapter has the protagonist battle a different trope or cliche.




When I first picked up Sasaki and Miyano by Shou Harusono, I thought, "this reads like it takes place in the Zettai BL universe."

Protagonist Miyano is a fudanshi (check) at an all-boy's school (check) who attracts the attention of handsome delinquent(ish) upperclassman Sasaki (check) who calls him by the feminine nickname Myaa-chan (check) and whose classmate Hirano definitely has something going on with his roommate (check, check, check!). Sasaki and Miyano is practically bursting at the seams with BL tropes. It is the distilled essence of 2020s BL, the heart and soul of it, what you'd get if you fed every popular high-school-setting BL manga into a neural network AI and told it to generate a BL by itself.

And by god, does it work. I inhaled the main series and its spinoff within a couple of days, quickly getting sucked into the predictable, familiar beats of their extremely mundane love story. What makes Sasaki and Miyano work so well is that there is both a bare minimum of self-awareness of how tropey the setup is (thanks to Miyano's fudanshi genre-savviness), and a sincerity that makes me want to root for these kids. I love how despite talking about seme/uke dynamics in the BL they read in universe, Sasaki's never aggressive or violent towards Miyano, and rarely possessive. He treats Miyano with respect, and I can feel how much they genuinely both care for each other. I love that. I love love.




"Masha were you planning to post this on Valentine's Day" I had no plans to post anything at any point I just started typing in a fury at 11 pm one day and now you must all bear witness to it.




Anyway.

The spinoff Hirano and Kagiura somehow possessed me to the point I found myself hitting the next chapter button over and over wondering why there was nothing else and trying to get my hands on the untranslated Japanese chapters and seeing if I'd learned enough from Duolingo to figure out what was going on because I just needed more that badly. And it's still nothing new, nothing groundbreaking, nothing inventive or original. It's not brilliantly executed, it's just funny enough and weird enough and cute enough that I cannot stop.




Sasaki and Miyano got an anime adaptation that's airing on Funimation right now, and I wonder if anyone totally new to BL has picked it up. I wonder what it's like to read a comic like this without having read dozens of comics like it already. I love reading things that are just like other things I've read and loved, but what's it like to experience these classic scenarios for the first time?

Anyway, I like it and recommend it. It has approximately nothing in common with actual gay life (and unfortunately does do that annoying "I liked a girl in middle school so I can't possibly like boys" thing) but! It's cute! And enjoyable!

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Happy new year! I continue to be on my bullshit.

So I Hear The Sunspot (and the sequel series Limit) by Yuki Fumino are really interesting as BL comics. They're very thoughtful, multifaceted explorations of the difficulties of being hearing impaired in a world of hearing people, neither fully deaf nor fully hearing, and about the relationship between two boys, the hearing impaired, beautiful Kouhei and the kind of clueless but well-meaning Taichi. And the first volume had this afterword.


This explains why the first volume didn't really feel like a romance to me: the author hadn't been intending to write it as a romance, and was fairly unfamiliar with the genre in general. This is obviously a massive failure on the part of the editor (who hires someone to write for a magazine without telling them what the magazine is about?!) but it's also something I'd expect to see corrected, over time?

And yet the story continues for another 20 chapters after that first volume afterword, with the relationship developments feeling deeply unconvincing in a way that surprised me because in BL comics the other way around is a lot more common (see: the Amish BL I discussed recently.)

They Seem To Be Very Good Friends.

Taichi and Kouhei seem to remember they're Dating (and not just best friends) approximately once a volume, presumably when an editor reminds Fumino that they are in fact Dating. They're not very physically affectionate with each other most of the time, and while they think about each other a lot, they don't seem to be attracted to each other at all. When they do end up doing something physical together, Kouhei plays the seme role (probably because he's taller?) but it feels both out of character and out of obligation, and not like something he genuinely wants to do.  Taichi does think about Kouhei, often. But he never spends any time thinking about his romantic feelings for Kouhei, or the nature of his love. He thinks a lot more about how he can help make life better for Kouhei and people like him, which is sweet and admirable but not romantic. 

Their relationship progresses weirdly irregularly: Kouhei confesses first, and then Taichi says he doesn't hate it, and then eventually Taichi admits he reciprocates Kouhei's feelings but it feels like a lot of time passes while other developments unfold around them. They don't feel like they're each other's top priority, which makes sense because they both have so much other stuff going on. But I wish they felt more important to each other, sometimes.

They're keeping the nature of their relationship a secret from everyone around them but not for any specifically stated reason. I get the feeling Fumino knows queer relationships are frowned upon, but isn't clear on how exactly that manifests or why, and so just... glosses over it.



I think this is a shame because if Fumino remembered that gay people are also an oppressed minority that the world isn't designed to cater to, that could tie into the themes of disability advocacy and make the story stronger.

I've always thought that writing a good romantic relationship was like writing a solid friendship with kissing, but I Hear The Sunspot shows that there is a difference. The amount of physical affection needs to ratchet up slowly as their intimacy increases, the characters should be shown to be attracted to each other, they can't just be very good friends! They need to kiss about it!

Or, like. Okay Yuri On Ice they kiss on screen ONCE (and it's censored so some people can pretend it's just a hug actually), but you can tell Victor and Yuuri are deeply in love from every frame of animation and how they talk about each other, and how they talk with each other. So much of I Hear The Sunspot is about hearing impairment in general that not enough is about how special Taichi and Kouhei are to each other in specific.

I dunno. Obviously this is all highly subjective, your mileage may vary, I know a lot of people really like this comic and I like it too! I just think this aspect of it could be better.

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I am haunted at times by memories of Rumspringa no Joukei by Azuma Kaya.

Today I am specifically being haunted by my dear friend retweeting a tweet I made about it when I read it almost two years ago no, but in general, I am haunted by Rumspringa no Joukei.

Once upon a time a friend of mine tweeted a recommendation for a BL comic about an Amish boy and a dancer they'd just finished reading. This friend grew up in Singapore. I grew up twenty minutes away from Amish country and have spent a not-insignificant amount of my life in Lancaster county, as well as driving through the rolling hills on various road trips and buying delicious pretzels from the Amish and Mennonite farmers at the nearby farmer's market. I don't know a whole lot about Amish people and culture, but I know enough and am geographically close enough to it for Rumspringa no Joukei to feel like looking at a stranger's vague impression of my backyard.
And it is a vague impression!
Rumspringa no Joukei (literally "the scene of my rumspringa") is a comic nominally set in Pennsylvania in the 1980s in which an Amish boy named Theo on his Rumspringa (a time when Amish adolescents leave the community and experience the outside world before deciding if they want to stay in the community or leave it) encounters a young rent boy named Oswald (nicknamed Oz) with dreams of making it big on Broadway, and then they Fall In Love and have lots of well-drawn sex. It takes place in the 80s because the author wanted to have Oz's dad die in Vietnam during the moon landing. AIDS is never mentioned, despite the story taking place within the gay community in the tristate area in the 1980s. There's also a recurring metaphor using rainbow trout, for some reason. A lot happens in this thread!
The author cites two entire books as sources for her research on this manga: a photobook of Amish life, and a Japanese book about Amish culture. But she apparently did not do any other research about America in general in this time period, and it shows.

The part that struck me immediately on my first read through and the tweet that my friend retweeted today was this sterile diner in the second chapter that looks nothing like any diner I've ever seen in the tristate area.

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Though the landscapes of the settlement Theodore lives in are rendered in loving detail, probably from that photobook Azuma cited as reference, the environments of the urban location Theodore and Oswald lives in are generic and stale, making Theo's decision to run away with Oz in the name of True Love a bit harder to believe.

The characters in this comic are gorgeous to a fault. I mean that literally- don't most Amish men have beards?? Why don't Theo and Danny have beards?! Is it because beards aren't cool in BL? Yes, probably, but come on.


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This comic is very beautiful but the story is constructed out of tissue paper and dryer lint. The characters would be good if they were cut out and pasted into a completely different setting. I don't expect this comic to ever get licensed in English because, to anyone with even a passing familiarity of Amish culture and the tristate area in the 1980s, this comic will just feel wrong. Although it might sell well on the sheer novelty factor, because every time I tweet about it I get multiple replies saying "AMISH BL?!!? WHAT??"

But if you don't have that familiarity, check it out! It's pretty! I do admire Azuma's decision to boldly go where no BL has gone before, even if it's criminally underresearched as an excuse to shove all her favorite tropes into one comic.

And if you do know things about the Amish, may this haunt you like it haunts me.





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I love looking at multiple works by the same creator as a collection, picking apart recurring themes, motifs, images, figuring out what a specific artist likes to draw or write or think about, but also looking at how creators evolve over time, becoming more thoughtful and sophisticated as they make more and more work. Today, I want to talk about how the mangaka KAITO depicts relationships in his medium-length lacrosse slice of life comic Cross Manage, and his next longform work Blue Flag.
I read most of Blue Flag as it was updating, catching up around chapter 28, and just read all of Cross Manage today because I felt like it and it's on the Jump app, and I think it's really interesting how Blue Flag deconstructs and responds to things that Cross Manage seems to depict without thinking.
First, the good: KAITO seems to enjoy specific, different character designs, giving all of his recurring characters different body types, clothing styles, and caricature forms so they're instantly recognizable in any panel. Cross Manage and Blue Flag are both visual delights. I love the little faces and character details he gives everyone. The world the characters exist in feels full and real, and I'm so into it.

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His work is also expertly drawn. I was worried Cross Manage would be shakier, since it's an earlier work, but no. I think KAITO's one of the best draftsmen I've seen in manga recently. His thin, precise lines look almost like academic drawings sometimes, it's nuts. And he's great at gag reactions and visual comedy at the same time! What the heck!
Another thing I like about both works: supportive best friends! for the protagonist but also for other characters. In Blue Flag, Futaba and Taichi have separate friend circles that eventually overlap a bit, but they each have their own close, loyal, weird friends. And in Cross Manage, I really love how Seki and Wakamoto support the lacrosse team.
I actually found Cross Manage really interesting in terms of making me appreciate lacrosse a little. Where I grew up, lacrosse was the preppy WASP girl sport, but to see it protrayed as this weird niche underdog thing with our protagonist team full of unathletic amateurs made it more appealing. 
Now for the less good: Cross Manage has a lot of... I've been calling it "Weird Shonen Het Shit", and that's honestly how I feel about it. It's uncomfortable, heterosexual, and in a way I've only really seen in shonen manga. Let me count the ways:
1) There's like three girls in love with our (admittedly very lovable) protagonist Sakurai, who is oblivious to their affections. This isn't actually a harem manga so it's not really about this, but it's still weird and not necessary, imo.
2) Ryu is a college student working at the LAX equipment store who is... weirdly protective of Misora, high school first year. He says he thinks of her as his "cute little sister" but like. It's Weird.
3) The fact that the whole reason Sakurai ends up managing the lacrosse team is because he accidentally touches Misora's chest and she blackmails him into it.
4) There's a lot less fanservice than you see in manga like, for example, My Hero Academia, which makes the moments when you do get an intentional cleavage shot all the more uncomfortably jarring. It's like the audience needs to be occasionally reminded that Sakurai is a Guy and the Girl's LAX team is Girls.
5) Pretty much any time a guy and a girl interact everyone around them is like "omg are you dating. omg do you have a crush. omg"
Which brings me to my next point: why Blue Flag is such an interesting follow-up to Cross Manage.
Blue Flag takes a lot of these tired shonen tropes and actually interrogates them. In Blue Flag, Mami is a pretty girl who likes being friends with guys, but everyone assumes she's dating the boys she hangs out with and she gets to express how annoying it is to have this assumption ruin friendships for her over and over again. She also gets to be frustrated with her guy friends who insist on "protecting" her by trying to control her life. 


We also have Masumi and Touma, who people assume are dating because they're a boy and a girl who hang out. (Spoiler: they're gay.)
Actually wait let me expand on Masumi a bit. Spoilers for the finale of Blue Flag here, I guess.
The way Masumi's character is handled in the epilogue is incredibly frustrating, for a series that hit the mark so many times to just whiff it entirely like that. Her main arc in Blue Flag is coming to terms with her identity as a lesbian, navigating comphet and societal pressure to date men she's not attracted to. In chapter 38, she tells Akiko "The people I like... they aren't the same as normal people."
And then in the epilogue she's married to a dude. What. Where'd that come from.
Obviously bisexuality is valid and bi people exist and all that, but the fact that her whole arc in the story is learning it's ok to not be attracted to men, only to then somehow discover she can be attracted to men entirely off panel, is just... what? You couldn't have shown us that in the story? Without any exploration or elaboration on this idea it ends up reinforcing the Schoolgirl Lesbians trope, implying her feelings for Futaba were like practice for her eventual heterosexual marriage. Whack!
Okay Masumi tangent over.
Anyway, I think it's interesting that Cross Manage has characters who reinforce heteronormative ideas about friendships while Blue Flag unpacks them and digs deeper into potential friendship and relationship dynamics. That's it for now, I guess!


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 Pi using Dreamwidth has inspired me to start using Dreamwidth. So uh, hello world, and so on. Let's go.

So I have this group chat with 3 friends where we talk about topics such as queer animanga fandom trends, zine discourse, indie comics, and other fun things. One of the things that I made the groupchat to discuss and that we've continued to discuss because it's inherently hilarious is "girl yaoi", the idea that the strongly codified seme/uke dynamics, tropes and visual language of the late 90s/early 2000s yaoi manga subgenre can be applied to a relationship between two female characters. And as every action has an equal and opposite reaction, "girl yaoi" must have a counterpart in "boy yuri."

And I believe I have found examples of both of these things!  Allow me to present my findings to the court.

Kase-san and Yamada by Hiromi Takashima (specifically the sequel manga to the original Kase-san, where the yaoi-like traits become more prominent) is an example of "Girl Yaoi" by depicting a tall, athletically gifted and posessive brunette courting a petite, submissive and passive blonde. This echoes the classical seme/uke dynamic common in old-fashioned yaoi manga. In the story, Kase is constantly jealous of Yamada interacting with new friends or random boys, and while her jealousy does negatively affect both of their lives, it's never presented as a flaw Kase needs to overcome.
Kase-san being jealous of some guy who was talking to Yamada.
But where Kase-san's yaoiesque nature truly shines is in its commitment to "no climax, no plot, no meaning".
The story drifts through Kase and Yamada's college days with little in the way of overarching plot tensions-- events happen, people feel things, but there's no urgency that keeps the reader engaged. It's a manga for people who like to see cute girls doing cute homoerotic things, which is valid. There's better comics for that out there, but I am not here to judge other people's tastes. I am here to argue that in replicating tropes and dynamics common in yaoi in this GL manga, Takashima has created the rare and elusive "girl yaoi".

Now for the "Boy Yuri."

Old-Fashioned Cupcake by Sagan Sagan is "boy yuri" because I read it and thought "Wow, this is exactly like every manga tagged with both 'OL' and 'yuri' I've read on dynasty-scans in the past month but with two dudes." As I am conscious other people do not compulsively check the front page of dynasty-scans on a near-daily basis, I shall elaborate on what I mean by this. Old-Fashioned Cupcake is a fairly obscure, short BL manga about two office workers who start going out to eat fancy sweet treats in cafes popular with young girls in an attempt to make one of them, who's approaching forty, feel young again. (The younger guy is 29). The things that make Cupcake "boy yuri" are its preoccupation with balance and reciprocity in a way that reminds me of working-woman-yuris like Still Sick or Donuts Under a Crescent Moon, the slow build of sexual and romantic tension, and the unexpected recurring thread of Gender that comes up in Nozue and Togawa's conversations with each other. Nozue doesn't just want to be young again, he wants to be a young girl, silly and frivolous, taking selfies and having girl talk.
page from old-fashioned cupcake depicting the scene I just described

It's a very unusual angle for a BL to take, which is why it feels more like yuri, and also, like yuri for lesbians. 

This concludes my presentation for the day. Thank you for reading. I will be back with more takes too niche for professional media criticism sites and too long and weird for twitter threads... eventually.

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